Day 26

Day 26 October 29th

Name a song that makes you cry every time you hear it and why.

I can't say their is one particular song. Really just anything I hear that allows me to visualize an emotional memory. It has to be something very strong in lyrics, and tendor. Now that I think about, there is one song that takes me there every time. Its a praise and worship song,  I can't remember the name right now, but it was written and performed by a gospel indie artist.  It evokes the most sincere praise from me. Its so simply, but powerful!  The song reminds me I serve an awesome, all knowing, all powerful,  and living God. I am in awe at times of how He blesses me inspite of me. People are so judgmental sometimes,  and fear what they don't understand. They'd rather label you then take the time understand your pov. I don't let those people bother me though, I keep right on crying and praising. I have to remind myself sometimes though, "they don't know my story, so they won't understand my praise!"

Day 25

Day 25 October 28th

Describe a moment when you “paid it forward.” What happened and how did it feel?

I paid for the breakfast of the car behind me at dunkin donuts. I hope it made their day, because I felt good about it.

Day 24

Day 24 October 27th

 If you could relive ONE day of your life, what would it be? And would you change anything?

The Thanksgiving after my uncle's  funeral. I would have made a different "introduction."

Day 23

Day 23   October 26th

Talk about a moment when you got annoyed with a married friend, a person in a relationship, or a person with kids (Be honest! No judgment!)

Pretty much anytime they say "But, Niqi your single and you don't have no kids!" That pisses me off!!! No, I don't have any children. And yes, I am single. the point of that statement would be what exactly? I STILL HAVE RESPONSIBILITIES!!!! I STILL GOT BILLS!!!!

Day 22

Day 22   October 25th

What fictional character in a movie, tv show, or book do you identify with and why?

I'm sure I can identify with other characters, but the one that comes to mind is Jill Scott in "Why did I get married too?" She's been through a lot in her past, and has become a confident, strong, and influential person. The character is outspoken yet vulnerable, and still struggles from time to time with finding a happy medium/balance.

Day 21

Day 21 October 24th

How would you pitch a reality show about yourself? To what network?

Combine Tionna Smalls, Jill Scott, sprinkle in a little Tami Roman, and boom “Here I is!” Not to mention I’m FAT GURL FLY! Who doesn’t love a cute fattie that can: hug you like momma, support you like a best friend, crack jokes betta than a drunk uncle, converse with the ivy league, set a table better than the butler, cook like grandma, "rock the boat" better than aaliyah and pinky, and hold a brotha down in the process of making major moves?

Oxygen

Day 20

Day 20 October 23rd

Describe your most difficult break up and what you learned from it.

Definitely the break up between my ex-fiancé and I. We were deeply connected, and imbedded in one another’s lives and I was in love. Ending any relationship that involved is beyond difficult. It is a life altering experience. I went through every emotion known to man. I think the thing that was most difficult to grasp was that I lost my best friend. The only person who literaly knew me inside and out was now gone. That hurt! We even did the on and off thing for a while. Eventually, I just got to a point where I couldn’t do it any more, the internal turmoil was too much. We remained friends and talked regularly for about a year, after that the friendship just diminished. I was dating again and he had moved his now wife and her children into his home. There was really nothing left to discuss at that point. If we see each other I think we would have a general and cordial conversation. (Hi, how are you? Have a good day.) So I think we parted ways amicably. I have no ill feelings, and I wish him well, I’d even confidently venture to say the feeling is mutual.

I learned me! I can honestly say I met ME for the first time after that experience. That relationship opened my eyes to my flaws, my attitude, and how difficult I can be to deal with at times. I know now, what I’m willing to accept from my partner, what I won’t, and the art of compromise! Beyond that I learned when to talk and how much is appropriate to say at a given time. Lol, truth be told I learned how to be seen and not heard, as the old people say. The push and pull of any relationship is a difficult line not to cross, but when you know your partner things become that much easier. I take the time to learn my partner, his likes, dislikes, mannerisms, facial expressions, favorite foods, childhood memories, bad dreams, and even how he likes his shirt ironed. An experience like that will cultivate and improve you, if you allow it too. Luckily I did!